current mood: loved
current sounds: the eternal hum of the Force
Everything has gone terribly wrong. There is no blame here, no easy moment to pinpoint and say, "yes, exactly here, this is what caused the disaster", but more a slow build-up. I don't want to say inevitable. I should like to hope that this could have been avoided.
And yet when I consider the Prophecy, that he is to bring balance to the Force, perhaps this was an inevitability. Perhaps for Anakin to bring balance, he must first find that balance in himself, be redeemed from the Dark and come back to the Light all the stronger for it.
I think about all of this, and cannot help but think of Xanatos. Amazing how that old wound has the power to hurt. And yet, it was my Obi-Wan who resolved that. And it will be my Obi-Wan who will resolve this. I have utter faith in him. Never has he disappointed me, and never shall he. He is everything I could have wanted him to be and more. Yet he doesn't see it. He sees his failures, his mistakes. He is a general who prefers peace, a warrior who prefers solitude, a leader who would rather be a hermit. A bundle of contradictions, yet effortless in grace. I am proud of him. And I love him very much. He will do what needs to be done and I will be with him every step of the way. He will not fail. He never has.